The Pursuit of Happiness is a monthly series that documents my journey to becoming a more fulfilled, successful and happier person.
Hey lovelies. You may have realised that I have not been around very much on the blog or social media this month. I’ve been going through a really tough time and it was one that I was not prepared for. It suddenly sprung out of nowhere on me at the end of April and it hit me hard. I will be talking more about this in Monday’s post.
I’m actually pretty proud of the way that I have dealt with this pain and I know that if this was something that happened this time last year I would have been a mess. I know that I would have lost myself in throwing myself into a social life and trying to forget and escape from what happened. But I think that the journey that I have been on recently has taught me how to deal with negative, painful feelings. Instead of trying to sweep the cause of this hurt away I have confronted it. I have spoken to people, real medically trained people, about it and that has helped beyond expectation. I have spent time by myself- not shutting myself away but instead writing about how I have been feeling, making sure that I work on keeping myself physically healthy- sleep, water, and fuelling myself with healthy food. On the occasions that I have been out with friends and family I have stayed away from alcohol and still had a fabulous time…who would have bloody thought!
I am still in one piece and it feels really nice.
The pain is still there, I think that it will always still be there but I have accepted it, acknowledged it and welcomed it. A year ago Sophie would have treated it like an enemy and fought a battle that she would always have been destined to lose. Instead I have embraced it like an old friend and because of that the battle has gone in my favour. This is the best lesson that I have taught myself in years and I don’t think that I would be at this stage if it wasn’t for this Pursuit of Happiness series…I guess that that is the real power of blogging!
Health, exercise, physical things wise this month has been pretty crappy too as I have been struck down with the common cold which means that boxes of tissues have been used and abused and the gym has been a no go zone. I am now through the worst of the cold and I am tres excited to dive back in to the pool and re-lace my trainers.
Food has been my friend this month and I am shocked. Normally when I go through tough patches I abuse it. I eat like a pig and use my feelings as an excuse. This time I have realised that in order to stay mentally healthy I need to be nourishing my body and not pumping it full of man made chemicals. There will be lots of bloody delicious recipes coming your way extremely soon my darling friends.
I hope that May has been kind to you and if you find that it hasn’t I hope that you have found the strength to show it who is boss.
Looking back at May’s goals
Make weekly meal plans
Goal achieved! Without writing out and creating these meal plans by hand I think that the events of this month would have sent me spiralling into a pizza binge fest that I would still be stuck in. I will defiantly be sticking to this one and if people want I will share my June meal plans at the end of next month! I have cooked a lot and used ingredients that I have never used before that have now become firm staples in my pantry.
Add a little variety into exercise
Whilst I was still able to breathe through my nose and partake in physical activities I did manage to go introduce swimming into my exercise routine and really adored it. It was great to use my body in another way and I found it really relaxing. Rather than gasping for air I was able to think and sift through some of the junk that clutters my mind. I will be keeping this up next month too and working on building my stamina up here too because at the moment it is pretty shocking!
Visit 2 new places
Once again I had big grand plans of visiting just two new places but due to a snotty cold and driving to be with family, life has once again gotten in the way. Yet again it gets pushed to next bloody month!
Looking to June
Visit 2 new places
Hello old friend of a goal. You are back and I am so keen to stop devoting goal time to you that you might just get done.
Finish my bloody book
I am currently reading A Brief History of Seven Killings by Marlon James and it is so bloody brilliant and one of the best books that I have read in a long time. I can therefore not quite get my head around why I am only half way through it after quite a few weeks of reading. I know that I struggle to concentrate enough on reading when ill and I haven’t quite been in the headspace to want to leap into something quite so violent (which I normally really love) just before sleep time. I picked it up again yesterday and I am once again hooked.
Host a picnic
As a teacher we work long hours and really rather hard but we do get great holidays which are really fucking deserved! We break up for Summer at the end of June and I want to host a picnic with all my school friends to celebrate the end of a great year. I really appreciate having people that I am so close to in the same place that I live and work and wouldn’t cope without them. I want for us to all get together, enjoy some sunshine (hopefully) and just celebrate being fabulous. Is that too much for a girl to ask?
So May. I am keen to see the back of you but I am thankful that you have been here. You have taught me that I am much stronger than I sometimes believe myself to be. You have taught me that I am not the same person that I was last year and for that I will be forever grateful
What goals will you be setting yourself this month? Let me know below, it really means a lot!